Thursday, January 6, 2011

God given talent


You don't have to believe a fat and clumsy guy like me knows little bit about fighting and martial arts...

HOWEVER... you have to see the following video to believe that everyone.. and I mean EVERYONE and that includes YOU... have a talent and gift that God wants you to share with the world.. even if it means in this lifetime, it might seem insignificant to you... but I am a firm believer in the butterfly effect in the broader sense of the word.

"... refers to the idea that a butterfly's wings might create tiny changes in the atmospheretornado or delay, accelerate or even prevent the occurrence of a tornado in a certain location. The flapping wing represents a small change in the initial condition of the system, which causes a chain of events leading to large-scale alterations of events (compare: domino effect). Had the butterfly not flapped its wings, the trajectory of the system might have been vastly different. While the butterfly does not "cause" the tornado in the sense of providing the energy for the tornado, it does "cause" it in the sense that the flap of its wings is an essential part of the initial conditions resulting in a tornado, and without that flap that particular tornado would not have existed."
- Wikipedia on Edward Lorenz (Chaos Theory)

Personaly though, I call this the Butterfly Effect of God. One gift, one talent, however insignificant, have the power to affect the people around us and change the world. But don't go holy holy on me hor.. wait I beat you up ah...

no wait.. I call my geng and number to come chop you up ah!!!!


Check out this video.

Me and my squeaky voice... meh.. I love to have a voice like that.. :P


Tearing my hair out

Recently I found another use for my extra Acer PC. I hooked it up to my surround audio speakers, and my flatscreen TV in my living room. Then as I did not have a license for Windows XP, I decided to pop in my Ubuntu 9.10 Live CD and install Linux as my OS.

Well, all went pretty well for the first few run as I have done this before.. but somehow, in the middle of installation, the entire installation process would hang.. grrr..

Must have wasted at least $20 of my electricity bill man.. letting it just hang there in hopes it would somehow miraculously resume installing... HA! ...but then again hor, the harddisk was furiously spinning away during those hang times lor.. I wonder... hmmm

Well, 2 days ago, I decided to redo another install and viola... this time it installed well.. phew. Then as I hooked up to the internet, I realised the new version Ubuntu 10.04 LTS (Lucid) was ready for public release.

Did I learn my lesson? N O lor... *facepalm*

Another update install from 9.10 to 10.04 took another 24 hours!! But then.. this time I know well enough to let it do its own background installing EVEN if.. YES.. even if it appears to have stalled for many many hours... LET IT RUN.. eventually it will POP through and complete the upgrade and install process *smirk*

This time however... no WIRELESS connection.. siiiigggghhh... so troublesome one leeehhhh

I searched online for solution.. searched up, find low.. dig under, peeked over.. boh is boh lor.

The solutions posted online, either did not fit my problem description, too complicated or I am just not getting it.

I think I am just not getting it.

So now my Acer pc sits swee swee under my dvd / karaoke, above my subwoofer box, all packed beautifully inside my TV cabinet... with no wireless internet access. I guess no choice.. got to let it be wired lar. But I not happy leh.. what to do?

And.. oooo the weighing scale machine needle moved downwards again today.. yipee.. heh heh

Later going club to swim and steam, and suana. Damn good for getting rid of those lactic acid build up and burn up "YOU" ah!

*bounce *bounce *bounce away

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Kena Plateau

Day 34:
Weight: 112kg
Fitness intensity: Average

*Beep* *Beep* %&@#% #%^^ #$%%^ tio plateau.. can you believe it???

Usually an average person who is of below average muscle build (just like me a couple of years back) loses about 15kg before hitting the first plateau. But I reckon I am building as much muscles as I am losing weight so the is little progress where my weight loss is concern.

I am there going to plan B to chart my way back to fitness, and that is fat index and overall body measurement. No way am I using BMI.. even at my fittest, I measure an obese BMI.. and then I proceed to beat the PTI(Physical fitness instructor as they are called in the army) at 2.4, pushups, situps... only no pull ups... I think it is a fantasy of mine to even do ONE pull up.. lmao.. this coming from me, who can do about 100 regular pushups and 50 ballistics. eh.. ballastics mean pushup + clap.. like that lar..

argh.. itchy itchy.. my new year wound on my back from scratching that noticeboard is bothering me. need to go washup and dress my wounds..



*plateau - a stage of weightloss whereby your loss in body weight (fat, bones, muscles, etc) in total is = your gain in muscle mass from gym, workouts, exercises. Solution: Pump up intensity of exercise and cardio workout to increase fat burn. Gym and weights training should remain relatively same. Listen.. if you also increase your weight training, the equation would still be balance = no weightloss... #keblong your head# understand? *grumble*

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Daily compulsions...

I have a confession to make.

I harbor a criminal's mind.

I have violent thoughts almost everyday of my life for the past 22 years...

If you observe me quietly from behind.. most of the time, you will notice I mumble a lot to myself, talk, gesturing my hands and arms, stepping in weird ways and sometimes, even violent movements followed by shaking of my head...

...followed by more mumblings...

Maybe I am partially of unsound mind..


..perhaps I have a mind ticking and thinking away like a murderer, gangster, ah beng, ah seng, molester, rapist, robber, pick-pocket...

I like to think terrible thoughts of stabbing someone, from under the ribs, behind into the kidneys, to following some poor lady to the lift and when the door closes, I will corner them and rob them or have my way with them... Sometimes, I would think of how to best use the chopper or parang that I would imagine holding in my hands and inflict the maximum amount of damage on my poor victim.

In my mind... I have been the perpetrator of many violent crimes...

Don't think too badly of me yet.. I wasn't born this way.. I wasn't made to think like this.. is because I choose to.

When I am out with my family, and we see a man stumbling with a bottle of beer in one hand, I immediately become alert to the potential danger to come... A beer bottle can be a murderer's tool, if you let it. I know, because in my mind, many, many scenarios of the potential threat has played through in my head. I walk through every possible defense from this set piece as thoroughly as I can, no win situation, especially when the family is around.. so we avoid drawing his attention, walk another way, away from danger.

That is but ONE of the thousands of scenarios my mind play out everyday in my head... by being the aggressor, I study the defense, by playing out the movements in my head and aided by my moronic hand and feet gestures, I can prepare as many defense to as many attacks my head can churn

Maybe I am just crazy.. bwahahaha...

Monday, January 3, 2011