iLike thoughts on the eve of a major event

22 Apr 2016: 114.1kg

That's it folks... today is the eve of a month-long major training camp. On Saturday, I will embark on another (first) training program aimed at improving my fitness, weight-loss and fight knowledge.

At this age, I will not call it fight SKILLS..as I think I am in the process of slowly losing what I have. Reflexes, stamina, strength. The only things I am accumulating as I age are (not limited to) wrinkles(as little as possible please), money (as much as possible please), experiences, memories (deteriorate slowly) and FATS.

I will attempt to blog if I can from the camp if I find energy left (I will be attempting 4-5 hours a day training).

More details as and when I find out more myself. :P

Now I am sitting down in from of my comp and getting this blog done...

Been recently eyeing (i-ing... get it? get it?) a brand new iMac from the iStore (my faithful and trusty old iMac finally died...age:10 years old). Oh oh and I also crowd funded father.io for a reality fps called inception... and Kaiser for 2 parachute couches..  seriously cool.(Take a look)

Wei.. not scared of getting iSued from iMac ah? *hiak hiak hiak.. (ichoke)(igasp)(DANG! *ifaint)

Here goes.. iLike...

1...dark, gloomy, cold and windy rainy mornings... it always gives me a nice feeling that the world is taking a break... so should I... hee hee

2...morning wood... ahhhhh.... (this one sure kena censored by Pam one..)

3...the smell (snnnnifffff); feel of new karate dogi...

4...cutsie little kittens...

5...the way I feel sandbags caved-in after I kick 'em...

6...the way I feel sandbags caved-in after I punch 'em...

7...the way I feel caved-in after my training sessions...

8...seeing the faces of my kids first thing in the morning when I wake and last thing at night before I sleep...

9...seeing the face of Pam first thing in the morning when I wake and last thing at night before I sleep... *ok ok, maybe not the first thing when I wake lar.. every husband out there knows after a few years of marriage, our wives' face is sometimes the scariest thing to see when we open our eyes... all that droool...eeeeeeee

10...nice fitting shirts and tank tops...

11...the way I can keep eating carbs and stuff and my weight still don't go up.. *THERE YOU GO...WHO SAID NON-CARB DIETS ARE YOYO DIETS?? COME TAKE A LOOK AT ME...

*ahem..but I digress...

12...CabalSEA Online... This is a free-to-play MMORPG game which is pretty addictive...I play a character there called TwilightPard, Blader. Other than playing the game as it was intended, there is another element to it called "humans", pronounced "HUE-MENS", sometimes they are also pronounced "S-HOES". PVP is part of the game whereby players can pit their skills (here means MY LEVEL HIGHER THAN YOURS SO I BULLY AND BEAT YOU SENSELESS) against each other in "Player versus player" duels. Levels not important lar but I think it is the skills and luck of the player that counts. :P The most if I kena bullied in the game, I will get them to come and PVP me in RL (Here means REAL LIFE... and my RL level is super duper high *wink)... and I just bring my buddies along.. (Left & Right fists, Left & Right legs)...heh heh heh heh heh

13...DDO (Dungeons & Dragons Online)... Another free-to-play MMORPG game which is what happens when childhood dream meets modern technology. When I was younger, I used to play sessions and sessions of D&D with my friends, Albert, Shawn, Darren and there is someone else I don't seem to remember his name. Anyway, us few D&D nerds would hunker down in the foyer after school and play for hours.. indulging in dragons, and magic and roguery. *Fondly remembering here and smiling at the computer screen for a few moments. ~Sigh

14...my workout sessions at my studio gym...the way I get muscle tears and soreness after a good workout... *woohooo!

15...my G4 iMac is officially dying...current mac is a 2013 iMacbook Air... another damn cool machine..at the moment I am hooking it up to a 32" TV with HDMI and cool gadgets that enable me to play my (13..13..13..13)...  games :PP

16...my Samsung S6 edge phone...it has become like an attachment to my body already...I worry the day it has to be replaced...eek...

17...my workout attires...but Pam forbids me to go out in some of the shorts because she says they are too "tight"... got such thing one meeeeeeeeh?

18...my friends...because I have very few of them...LOL

19..."COO-MEE-TEH" & KAA-TAA"...if you don't know what they mean...then you don't need to know...LOL

20...i also like brazillian wax...but shy lar so DIY and go for GILLETTE CLOSE SHAVE...wahahahaha

21...taking my own pictures...enuff said...

22...walking in the local shopping malls window shopping and people watching...nice to see life in action...while my wife and kids are living their own lives and have own activities these days...

23...CHEESECAKE!...you know, those with the crushed biscuit base and they serve it in wedges... yummy yummy...

24...travelling...when my business settles down and can run on its own, I want to travel the world and experience what the internet and books cannot teach me...

25...chicken rice...hmmm...for some reason or other, I keep getting this crazy craving for chicken rice... yum yum... There is is store at Katong Shopping Centre.....    *drool...  (wanders away)..


~CJ

Calm after the storm

15 Apr: 115.1kg

Its been almost 1 week since I was down with tonsillitis (infection of the tonsils) was bedridden for 3 days. Most frustrating as I have really just gained momentum in my fitness regime. However, as with anything that we put out mind to... as long as we don't give up hope and try, there will still be a fighting chance.

For almost 10 days.. no coffee..  erggh.. today was my first sip of the Essenso instant coffee (no sugar of course) which I bought from NTUC before my sickness thingy began.

I just wanted to update my blog so as not to lose momentum here as well  ..:P

Been weight lifting again to build those bodyline once my weight has been reduced to a proper proportion. Combined with a proper diet and healthy living, maybe I can beat back the signs of aging... :P

My target fitness weight? 88kg

Doable? Yes. Difficult? Everything starts out with inertia, but once we get past that, nothing is impossible. I am repeating my formula which saw me dropping to my ideal weight a few years ago. If it was doable then, its doable now. Please please dear lord, once I get back there,, please don;t ever let me climb back up to 100kg again...  cannot tahan ah..  *grin

Signing off from my boring post (This morning no inspiration.. rainy morning and right after a heavy weights session)

~CJ

Long road back to fitness

31 Mar: 121.7kg
4 Apr: 116.9kg

They say "When an injured bird with a broken wing dies, it died not of its injury but of its heart and broken will yearning for a sky never to be free again."

My mother told me I had heart murmur when I was young... and all I can do at most is brisk walking...  well a doctor said so. He has since passed away so I cannot prove to him miracles do happen.

My mother passed away peacefully and hopefully painlessly on 4th March this year from terminal pancreatic cancer, it was so fast from the point of discovery, 6th February, (was also when she was warded to TTSH), to the point she passed.  It had taken less than a month.

It was so helpless to watch her slip away everyday, every passing moment was agony. I remember it was the night before the chinese lunar new year like it was yesterday.  It was reunion dinner night.. a night where all the families would gather at a table and have dinner together.  I remember having to attend one such dinner with Pam's side of the family, but all I could think of was my own mother lying alone in the hospital bed.  So I took off and bought a bun. I went upstairs to her ward and caught her awake and alert :P  It was dinner time, so I ate with her. I said, "Ma, chi fan le. Wo men yi qi tuan yuan." She said ok, and we ate by the bedside, our last proper meal together as mother and son.

I used to visit her on Sunday mornings after my wet market shopping to get her groceries for the week, when I could afford it. Sometimes business is bad and my cash flow is low, I cannot really buy anything much, I would just drive there and chat with her. Sometimes I would stay there for hours on end.

After her funeral, I have another uncle, we call him Uncle Kheok Song..  He is my father's elder brother. He died after he had multiple strokes and complications. It has been a few years since he had the strokes. But still, to watch a person's life ebbing away slowly takes its toll.

One morning after the wake, I was walking past a mirror and took a good look at myself..  CMI.

I don't really give a damn how or what other people say or comment how I have gained weight, or waddle while walking..  but I MIND what I think of myself.  CMI.

So I begin. Training starts. Thus I am.

I will write more of my thoughts as my training progresses. Seow asked me if I am interested in a swan song tournament end of next year (2017) in the Philippines.  We shall see..

Signing off~
CJ

New post in a long time

Hello myself and anyone reading. (Laughs) This blog has laid dormant for so long without a positive post I think its probably a dead page by now.

Its good, because I feel everything sometimes deserves and ought to be reset. As we grow older, we change.

Our senses change, our tastes in music change, our opinions chang.. ok wait.. maybe it does not so much change but rather a paradim shift generally in the direction that suits our current way of life.

More of those ramblings in future posts.. I guess.  I used to blog because I wanted an outlet for my opinions and views in my life and martial art so that I don't explode internally *hrr hrr hrr  These days I blog because I also don't want to explode internally but most importantly, I want to record my thoughts before I turn senile. I do feel I have a few good opinions and knowledge in my head that will benefit future generations... keke (as if).

New Beginnings

I have to face the hard truths, it has been an uphill task to get my fitness back even though I tried. But the truth be told, there were half-hearted attempts at dieting, exercising and workouts.. but none of them had any visible effects.

Either I was too lazy, expected too much or simply was too busy to follow through. Either ways, it did not work to my expectations.

My younger routines done at an older age takes more determination and effort than I expected!  Anyways, I have already made up my mind make a difference this time around!

See? I have began my new series of blogs on a Monday! That signifies a new beginning?  lol  If I continue to blog tomorrow..  it just might translate into something more enduring and relevant.

Parking Oh Parking...

(Pinoy style = Parking to you oh!!!!)

Anyway, an old man challenged me to a fight over parking issues at work today..  when he stepped up to me, raised his fist and say,  you want to fight ah!..   I couldn't help myself but to burst out laughing....

Eventually this kuku bird was just a stubborn old man, no point wasting my life arguing with him lar, so I gave up and let him win lor..  although he removed his truck as soon as we were done talking...  I wondered if he was in a hurry to leave..  oh well.

An hour later I was still asking myself why I bothered with people like this.. arguing does not make my life productive...  

Well, I wondered why I was laughing earlier in the face of a fist being waved violently in front of mt face..  was it because of the absurdity of his request, or was it I lost the confidence to floor him then and there...  either way..  I need to get back to training.. training is good for the body and soul.

Oei! You young people out there..  have some respect for the older folks hor.  I am am about to cross over the threshold of oldness..   SMILE.

CJ

New start!!

I have just started my regime and good things are already happening :)

I just got an email about a new style of training which I see a good potential in helping me keep my fitness and maintain my focus and interest in training.  I will discuss that another post once that discussion with the person comes to fruitation! :)  But still!..  YAY! :)

Current weight: 114kg.
Diet: Pure Atkins.
My picture Testimonial:

Me at 114kg. (Ignore my slim sexy wife next to me)

I have never boasted or posted vainity pictures on facebook because I know the power of social media. To be vain there might be deterimental to some people's feelings, especially those whom you are trying to influence to keep fit and stay healthy.  That is not the way a person should behave.

It is good when you are fit and healthy and people looks up to you.  To become vain and self-righteous is to become a pompous ass.  People love to see a pompous ass fall from grace, as shall I watch from here and wait to see that pompous ass fall.

I have people who are struggling with their weight come up to me feeling rather down and bad because THAT pompous ass belittled them about giving excuses and their efforts. I told these guys, to give it their best and just do their best as time and financially they can afford.  I also told them I am going to do this weight loss journey for them.

I am going to prove, I can do this as easily as anyone but without boasting on facebook. If I can do it, anyone can.  No TRX. No daily running of 12km. No need belittle anyone on my way up.

Time will prove itself.

Till then,

CJ signing off *smile*

Private Challenge Gauntlet

I am the type who likes to prove people wrong...

Before you read on, if you have been reading my previous posts.. you will find this post extremely angry and targetted at a few pompous fools.  They deserve this scathing post because I think they need to realise they better a sleeping tiger does not mean a sick cat :)

This blog and the subsequent postings will be linked and posted on facebook when the appropriate time is right.

What kind of wrong message are we sending across to people who are overweight and trying their best to keep from gaining more?  Over weight people have a problem keeping their weight down because of many reasons.. some due to genetics.. some are due to conditions in their current life situations.

We should always encourage people to excel in what they are good at, and in losing some weight, it is always encouraging to have people cheer you on and encourage you when you lose steam.

When I was fit.. I love encouraging people who are overweight AND trying to lose weight. For those who refuse to lose weight or for some reason of their own, they are not losing even though they are trying, I would often sit down and see if they needed help.. and if they do, help.. if not, encourage them and leave them be.

Too often, I get people who have had some achievement losing weight becoming overly enthuiastic about helping other people lose weight.  Some go overboard to the extend of being arrogant and obnoxious.

Yeah, you know who you are.  No need to brag about your flat abs and superman exercise routine because that is NOT what people who are overweight want to hear about.  They NEED encouragement, not self-righteous, pompous story telling about how YOU lost weight.  Please lah. Keep those stories for yourself, or your blog...  not our ears.

When I was over weight, sometimes all I needed was a gentle reminder about my eating habits by my wife and it would suffice.  She quietly supports my attempts at weight loss even though, I often give myself excuses to stop half-way through.

I have people trying to "teach" me about Atkins diet although they barely know enough themselves. I have people advocating "boot camps" which will make them have flat abs and look good.  I have researched Atkins diet. I know all about boot camps.  They required goal settings, short, medium, and long term goals. Fundamental change in life style. Eating habits must change. Living conditions must change. We need to lose some bad habits AND this being said.. we need to lose some FRIENDS who are not good for us.  OR...  have you people forgotten?  Maybe, you didn't know huh?..  Well, I teach you lor. :)   Since you like to "share" knowledge..  I "share" with you..ok?

These people are bloody missing the damn point!  Running 10 and 12km every day is not the key to fitness. Going to the gym is not the key. Having bootcamp and vanity is not the key.  Its VANITY.

I am taking this personally. This friend of mine insults and thinks too highly of himself just because he does gym and runs 12km daily. He thinks he is macho because he has 6 packs and recently got into shape. He has forgotten he was actually a lumpy and unfit guy I know when I was superfit and I was still really nice and decent to him. Now he likes to think too highly of himself.

Another aquaintance of ours, thinks too highly of herself as well. She assumes she is a good dancer and she has charisma.  LOL. Answer is none of the above. Just because she lost weight PERSONALLY, she makes it an effort to help people lose weight by creating some weight lose group.  For that I applaud her, but the truth be told..and if she was honest enough to herself...  its because of financial gains. Look carefully and you will see :)  Well, she had intended to make use of my wife to help her in a new business she opened recently..  but unfortunately for her, Pamela was smart enough to realise when she is being set up,  So as a husband and wife team, now, we run a fitness studio which a group of like minded people, who are really nice, dedicated and experienced.   Anyway, I digress.  This aquaintance of ours thinks too highly of herself and her so called bootcamp is going to transform lives.

WRONG.  She also missed the point. She has forgotten how she came to lose weight. The fundamental shift, dietary habits, encourangements.. and setting of long term goals. You seriously think bootcamps will help in weight loss???  Or are you just after financial gains again? Except this time, its rather blatant. Oh well.

Anyway. I will throw down a guantlet of my own. 3 months huh?

Simi simi bootcamp ah.. wahh..  your program sure dam power one lar..  got TRX.. got muay thai.. got capoeira..  got zumba..

To my dear fit (zhi-lian)(zhi da) pompous friend...  simi simi 10km, 12km..  wah gym everyday...  wah.. 6 packs ah... wah...

3 months.

I will post a picture before. I will post my progress.  I am not going to do anything a regular person won't do. No TRX. No Zumba. No narcissist training.. (aiyoh... I cannot tahan the guy's eyes.. he looks down at people who are over weight and has changed to sooo obnoxious).. anyway, 3 months later.. no need you come find me to kumite. I WILL FIND YOU anytime.. anywhere my friend. Want to spar right, my fit friend...  3 months..  lai..  try .. try ...  this time I put you into a kimura lock and break your arms..  see if you want to be so hao lian!!

AIYOH.. cannot stand this guy leh..  learn a bit of sports karate only think he can fight.. frog at the bottm of the well.  At least I can get fit. You think you can learn to fight? LOL

Anyways... 3 months. Game on.

CJ