30 March was a goooood day. I had a fleeting glimpse of home. Felt at peace with the world... although the taxi ride was only 10 mins... it felt like an eternity for me. Never have I been more grateful to an insect on top of a taxi ceiling.
Monday, April 2, 2018
Tuesday, January 2, 2018
Home
Its 2018. Been a year and slightly more of being out on my own.
I miss home.
Home.
Always had one. Never been far away from it.
I am tired. I miss home. I just want to go home... and be with my family.
Friday, October 13, 2017
Sunday, September 10, 2017
我知道你很難過
蔡依林
作詞：胡如虹
作曲：葉良俊
愛一個人 需要緣份
你何苦讓自己 越陷越深
別傻得用你的天真
去碰觸不安的靈魂
每一天只能癡癡的等
愛一個人 別太認真
你受傷的眼神 令人心疼
沒有一個人 非要另一個人
才能過一生
你又何苦逼自己 面對傷痕
我知道你很難過
感情的付出 不是真心就會有結果
別問怎麼做 愛才能長久
這道理有一天你會懂
我知道你很難過
昨天是戀人 今天說分手就分手
別問你的痛 要怎麼解脫
多情的人注定 傷得比較久
愛一個人 別太認真
你受傷的眼神 令人心疼
沒有一個人 非要另一個人
才能過一生
你又何苦逼自己 面對傷痕
我知道你很難過
感情的付出 不是真心就會有結果
別問怎麼做 愛才能長久
這道理有一天你會懂
我知道你很難過
昨天是戀人 今天說分手就分手
別問你的痛 要怎麼解脫
多情的人注定 傷得比較久
愛若變成了刺 思念也成了癡
也許心碎是愛情最美的樣子
我知道你很難過
感情的付出 不是真心就會有結果
別問怎麼做 愛才能長久
這道理有一天你會懂
我知道你很難過
昨天是戀人 今天說分手就分手
別問你的痛 要怎麼解脫
多情的人注定 傷得比較久
Friday, September 1, 2017
Nightfalls
Nightfalls.
Everything around me is quiet and dark.
My heart starts remembering what my mind is trying to forget.
I am getting tired of smiling.
Tired of pretending to be happy.
All I want to do is break down and cry.
I want to stop in my tracks and sit down and rest for a little while.
...just for a little while...
...been so tired...
I am just so tired...
cj
Tuesday, June 27, 2017
Missing you
I miss you,
with each breath I draw,
I miss you,
with every passing moment,
I miss you,
with each beat of my heart,
I miss you,
with every step I take,
I miss you,
with each word I speak,
I miss you,
with every thought I think,
I miss you.
Sometimes I would lie in darkness,
it is easier to pretend you are by my side,
sometimes I would not speak for days,
it is easier for me to pretend I was waiting for you to come home so I could tell you about my day,
at times I would be lost,
but I know if I make it through today,
I would be able to see you tomorrow,
other times I cannot make up my mind what to do,
so I would close my eyes and have a conversation with you in my head,
you were not always sensible,
but you were always my sense of direction,
it may not always seem we have a future,
but you are always my tomorrow,
you may think you know the reason for my loving you,
but I never needed any reason,
from the moment I met you,
I love you.
~CJ
Sunday, June 11, 2017
One Day One Step
Weight: 75.9kg
Well.. I finally got started in Certis Cisco as an Auxiliary Police Officer.
Starting something new at this age is not that difficult. I have always been quick at learning and picking up new skills.
This platform is not appropriate to discuss my personal views on my new job. If you want to know, ask me.
Looking back, I have been living alone for slightly over half a year. It has not been an easy start for my new life, but nothing is easy when we begin. I guess things will slowly get sorted out one issue at a time, and when that happens, I am sure everything will find its place.
For now, somedays I win the mental fight, somedays I am still losing. The Cisco Academy is overcrowded with trainees and they have ran out of barrack space. Even then, as my appointment currently do not require me to stay in, there are days when I wish I could have. Then I would not have to eat alone and sleep alone.
My shoulders have been killing me. Perhaps its my age, but I have feeling it was due to my change in eating habits. I do not eat as much as before and I have increased my workout regiment as much as my work and rest schedule allows me. I have come to depend heavily on panadol, anorexia and zyanals whenever I can lay my hands on them. NSAIDS are hard to come by without prescriptions so I have to depend on the generosity of friends who have extras. *SMILES
PA came through and have asked for a final session briefing on the evening of 22 June before signing the LOA for 3 years as a PA Trainer. I guess once I can sort out my work and rest schedule, I have to regulate my workouts and keep myself busy. I have to, so I can remain sane.
Martial Arts and Fitness training will always be my passion as is my plan on taking up Physiotherapy as my twilight career after finishing my stint with Cisco.
I have seen and learnt a lot from attending training classes. Learnt enough to know that everything must have a systematic approach when it comes to learning and experience. I will put that to good use when it involves my passions and approach to life.
This is just another boring rant and e-diary update on my state of life so far. Too much of these in recent posts and nothing really meaningful. I promise myself to get back into the swing of things soon.
Until then, thought of the day. Middle snap front kick; Chudan Mae Geri, it is without exception, one of the most effect technique, sports and street.
~CJ
Well.. I finally got started in Certis Cisco as an Auxiliary Police Officer.
Starting something new at this age is not that difficult. I have always been quick at learning and picking up new skills.
This platform is not appropriate to discuss my personal views on my new job. If you want to know, ask me.
Looking back, I have been living alone for slightly over half a year. It has not been an easy start for my new life, but nothing is easy when we begin. I guess things will slowly get sorted out one issue at a time, and when that happens, I am sure everything will find its place.
For now, somedays I win the mental fight, somedays I am still losing. The Cisco Academy is overcrowded with trainees and they have ran out of barrack space. Even then, as my appointment currently do not require me to stay in, there are days when I wish I could have. Then I would not have to eat alone and sleep alone.
My shoulders have been killing me. Perhaps its my age, but I have feeling it was due to my change in eating habits. I do not eat as much as before and I have increased my workout regiment as much as my work and rest schedule allows me. I have come to depend heavily on panadol, anorexia and zyanals whenever I can lay my hands on them. NSAIDS are hard to come by without prescriptions so I have to depend on the generosity of friends who have extras. *SMILES
PA came through and have asked for a final session briefing on the evening of 22 June before signing the LOA for 3 years as a PA Trainer. I guess once I can sort out my work and rest schedule, I have to regulate my workouts and keep myself busy. I have to, so I can remain sane.
Martial Arts and Fitness training will always be my passion as is my plan on taking up Physiotherapy as my twilight career after finishing my stint with Cisco.
I have seen and learnt a lot from attending training classes. Learnt enough to know that everything must have a systematic approach when it comes to learning and experience. I will put that to good use when it involves my passions and approach to life.
This is just another boring rant and e-diary update on my state of life so far. Too much of these in recent posts and nothing really meaningful. I promise myself to get back into the swing of things soon.
Until then, thought of the day. Middle snap front kick; Chudan Mae Geri, it is without exception, one of the most effect technique, sports and street.
~CJ
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